Why are you afraid? Do you know? Moreover, are you really afraid?
I think that you should look for something inside you and try to get out of you. When you can see the problem, you will be able to improve your character.
You can decide what do you want in your life, you can do everything you porpoise it, you can do it.
Life is a continuous choice, day after day, it shows you different options and you have to choose what thing you will do.
I’m going to stay beside you.
Don’t worry, be happy
;)